Recently I had a difficult choice to make and in doing so it has come to my attention that choosing for what feels good in the immediate future, can be mistaken for what is right. And by right I mean the choice that will deliver our highest potential. The stuff we feel really passionate about.
Following our heart is by far the scariest of options and every so often I find myself drifting towards escapism when venturing closer to the edge of the unknown, where we come face to face with our fear of failure. Can I really trust myself? Am I good enough? Won't I make a fool of myself when I start teaching? Am I ready? Of course, in theory I know it's ego on a rampage taking my mind hostage because when I'm meditating and truly present, in my heart and tuned in, I'm totally at peace in an exhalted state of bliss. I have to remind myself, I have nothing to prove. Only to be here now, to love and be in service.
I was quite young, maybe 18 I had a significant dream showing me my state of mind. In my dream I was hopping behind my sister down a path leading towards the edge of an abyss. My sister confidently jumped into the void, no problem at all. I, on the other hand, came to a screeching halt collapsing on all fours at the edge. I was terrified. A fire truck appeared hovering in the void rolling out a ladder leaning on a plank that now bridged the edge of the ravine and the ladder. A friendly fireman came forth who wanted to help me. Walking half way across the plank, he encouraged me to cross the plank. Regardless, I was too terrified and fainted in my dream!
Years later, when I was about 45, I had another significant dream. In the meantime I had read the ‘Conversations With God’ books of Neale Donald Walsh, which made a huge difference to my understanding of life. This time I was about to be sucked into a HUGE whirlpool in the middle of the ocean. The whirlpool was so large, it even had a cargo ship in it that looked like a toy. As I'm about to go down, I remember to ask God for help. In that very moment, I'm catapulted upwards and I'm flying across the ocean, seeing whales and dolphins swimming under the water.
There truly is nothing to fear...and I'm the first one who needs to remind myself of it because we live in world of energies that trigger us. That's the reason why meditation is such a must….and breathing deeply.
God, or Source Energy or whatever you want to call It, being all-knowing and pure love has got our back. Best is then, instead of worrying about the details, to wake up feeling blessed and grateful. So THANK YOU GOD for everything and give yourself the thumbs up! Sure as heaven, life will turn out all-right. We are heros!
In Love and Light